I couldn't believe my inner thoughts... A love so great within which has succumb my personal self... I am a human now, I cannot show unconditional love.... Or will it be worth....? Could i just remain my normal human self of anger, hurt, and giving up?....I have chosen the love for tolerance, value nurturing, and to never give up on this.... Lord guide me, because you have given me this hope, this love for me to look after and nuture, and i am very thankful for you.
Thank you for guiding my late father who had passed on. I hope he has a better afterlife. I hope he could become a deity or an Angel to guide us all and bless us.
14 years ago, at my bed, i told the lord to let me be back with him. But it is all too foolish and unworthy to even think about that, the lord told me. I finally went through a year of hell at school, believing to be disturbed by the evil thing.
A period of time, the feeling of emptiness has tormented me. The mystery lies beyond the emptiness that i am having. At times, i thought that the reality was a dream, and the dream was the reality... The only person who can advise me, but i did not listen in, is my mother.
Now the complexity of human minds, which translates to human actions and interpret by the individualistic thinking of different views and caused humans to disagree or agree with one another, or have perceptions that differs. The only way is to seek the majority, that will form the correction of the logical senses which one in a few will think otherwise, but have no choice, and to agree with it...
With having said that...everything i felt is the sudden surge moment of sadness, anguish and hurt which at normal situation and superficial basis, will not come into the attentions of anyone... the human world on the surfaces are usually the front to be braved and be happy, positive on, but deep within, there is an underlying sadness and sorry one can unlock, if there is a need to.....
