Can't really know what's up. The period of time where i was tiptop positive, smiling and having this positive vibrant feeling instilled with the slogan of "Life is good", seemed to fade like an ink on the paper.
The years was so long back, a decade, if i'm not far wrong. Reminiscing how the time of "me" had become the "now of me".
Am i really emotionally weak? Or am i just sensitive? Or am i having hypertension and/or chemical imbalanced? C'mon, i am a guy,man. I am a man. Not an "ah boy".
I came to a conclusion that being tired does cause higher sensitivity in one's emotion which can also lead to depression, if one do not know how to fight back emotionally.
Well, heard of "very tired but cannot sleep" Symptom? It hits me, but it doesn't sound right anyway. That's that link to cognitive dissonance? I wouldn't think so. I had to rely on "Melatonin" pills many time to be able to sleep at night. Comparing "Melatonin" to "Dormicum", "Dormicum" is a sleeping pill only prescribe by doctors, while "Melatonin" is a cheaper natural body insulin pills found at pharmacies for sleep inducing.
And where's is my Commando Spirit? I cannot feel it now, despite being "Once a Commando, and always a Commando" quote.
So where's my Karate Spirit? I too cannot feel it now. The feeling had vanished long time back.
Does it mean i have to wear an SAF smart 4 uniform with my Red Beret to feel "Fierce" or wear my Karate gi and black belt to really feel it? I don't deny some do gain the spirit only when they wear their uniforms. So does that somehow ring a bell of the thought of "Superman"?
Haiz, Integrated Marketing Communications main assignment. Social Cause? Perhaps i'm not kind enough. No social cause or concern close to heart yet. But since im in the Security Protection industry, my social cause or concern will be Security Awareness. At first it was about "Stopping Aid", but as mentioned by the lecturer, it has been beaten to death worldwide, and talking about "Healthy living", it is too broad to narrow or draw the line down. So, i had a headached on that module. At times i don't deny the lecturer's mouth does spit a psychic knife into my heart. But the damage wasn't too great for me to recoup each time.
It is seemingly true that a student's motivation and liking for a module does link to who the Lecturer is. If a lecturer is good, the students will like the module. But if the lecturer is fucked up, it does affect the students' morale somehow or in someway. 
I'm a degree undergraduate now. I should feel like one, but right now, i don't feel it. Why?However, my Feng Shui Confucius had blessed and looked after me through my Advanced Diploma in Mass Communications and Business Management. I am grateful for that.
I felt empty. Nothing can make me high easily. I do need something to make me feel high, or gives me high morale. Pls help.
Recently, i became one of the Pilots(Tactical drivers) for my Protection services side. On one part, i am glad that through this manual driving, i regained back my manual driving skills in just 1 full day. Now i can drive as fast i can handle, and believe my driving skills have improved like rocket. Just have to wait for defensive driving course.
This redemption of confident driving also changes my thought of getting a manual car in future, than a lazy auto. Manual car does stimulate your brain all round and make you think faster than prolong driving of auto, i would say. At time i don't understand why my brain seems to degenerate when on the ground, meeting outside people. The degeneration cause the slow process of the memory at times and decelerate the output of the brain. This must be fear. Stupid, fear, pls go to hell! Confident, pls come to me. Come to me, my little "Confident".
However it is time i should become a good crown and keep practice juggling my work and study well. Of course energy and time plays a part. Inspiration and motivation need to come in too. They are an integral part in contributing to the overall success.
Wish me luck. God bless me.
Good day.
A very good article forward to me via email. Extracted for all ladies down here. May save ur life or ur love one's life.Because of recent abductions in daylight hours, refresh yourself of these things to doin an emergency situation....This is for you, and for you to share with your wife,
your children, everyone you know.
After reading these 9 crucial tips , copy and
forward them to someone you care about.
It never hurts to be careful in this crazy world we live in.
1 . Tip from the Art of Tae Kwon Do : The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do it! . 2.If a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse,
DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM ..
Toss it away from you....
chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you, and he will go for the wallet/purse.
RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car, kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy.
The driver won ' t see you, but everybody else will.
This has saved lives.
4. Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping, eating, working, etc., and just sit(doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc.)
DON' T DO THIS!
The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in
on the passenger side, put a gun to your head,
and tell you where to go.SO AS SOON AS YOU GET INTO YOUR CAR,
LOCK THE DOORS AND LEAVE. If someone is in the car
with a gun to your head
DO NOT DRIVE OFF,
repeat:
DO NOT DRIVE OFF!
Instead start the engine and speed into anything, wrecking the car.
Your Air Bag will save you. Your Seat belt will too.
If the person is in the back seat, they will get the worst of it.
As soon as the car crashes, get out and run.
It is better than having them find your body in a remote location.
5 A few notes about getting
into your car in a parking lot, or parking garage:
A.) Be aware:
look around you,
look into your car,
at the passenger side floor,and in the back seat
B.) If you are parked next to a big van,
enter your car from the passenger door .
Some serial killers attack their victims
by pulling them into their vans while the women
are attempting to get into their cars.
C.) Look at the cars parked on the driver ' s side of your vehicle,
and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone
in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back
and get someone -
guard/policeman to walk you back out..
IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)
6. ALWAYS take the elevator
instead of the stairs.
(Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot.
This is especially true at NIGHT!)7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control,
ALWAYS RUN!
The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times; And even then,
it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN, Preferably in a zig -zag pattern!
8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic:
STOP
It may get you raped, or killed.
Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking,
well educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathy of unsuspecting women.
He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked ' for help ' into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.9. Another Safety Point:
Someone just told me that her friend heard a crying baby on her porch the night before last,
and she called the police because it was late and she thought it was weird. The police told her
'Whatever you do, DO NOT
open the door. '
The lady then said that it sounded like the baby had crawled near a window, and she was worried that it would crawl to the street and get run over.
The policeman said, ' We already have a unit on the way,
whatever you do, DO NOT open the door. '
He told her that they think a serial killer has a baby ' s cry recorded and uses it to coax
women out of their homes thinking that someone
dropped off a baby. He said they have not verified it, but have had several calls by women saying that they hear baby 's cries outside their doors when they're home alone at night. Please pass this on and DO NOT open the door for a crying baby ----
The Crying Baby theory was mentioned on America ' s Most Wanted this past Saturday when they profiled the serial killer in Louisiana.I 'd like you to forward this to all the women you know.
It may save a life.. A candle is not dimmed by lighting another candle.
These tips are intended for ladies. But if any of you thought it is useful, do copy and send it around.Send this to any woman you know that may need it.
